Ahhhh damn

well im home from work, and sitting here now about to start on the homework. amazing how that works isnt it? anyways, im really excited about te end of the semester coming up. I cannot wait! i think im going to head to mississippi to visit my family from like 19-27 or something, but then i have to hurry back in time for work. we go live on janurary 3rd i think, so i gotta be ready. im also excited because im moving to 1960 (north houston) area soon, and thats going to be a big change. no more sharing a room, living with my parents, and i dunno. im really looking forward but im kinda sad at the same time that im finally leaving. i am however very happy that i will and should be leaving on a good note, and i think thats a major plus. i have been cauught up in a bit of drama lately with janna and we are currently not talking. im really hoping this can be worked out but who knows at this point. i think its best that we just stay away from each other right now. im not sure where the future of our friendship lies, but im very concerned with this. i keep having this reoccuring thought that why should i continue to be friends with a friend that i hurt so much? should i just do thr right thing, and not talk to them for their own good? i know that probably sounds super cheesy but it is the damn truth. for one of the first times ever, i finally realized that my actions and hurt i cause her are seriously double edged. not only does it affect her life, but it is starting to affect mine as well from guilt and grudges i hold against myself for causing so much shit in another persons life. i dunno, i really hope i can work all of this out because im going crazy. i dunno..........ahhhhhhh, i could really use a change of scenery, get outa here lol but i cant right now. too bad, would be perfect timing. back to philosophy homework. gotta have something to distract me